Friday, June 4, 2010

June 3, 2010- 5:03 AM

Dear journal,

Well...today's the day. The day that my dream comes true and I board a plane to Monterrey, Mexico to be an intern with Back2Back for an entire month.

To be honest though...it doesn't exactly seem like a "dream come true". I miss my family already and I'm scared.

Jesus, I need you to give me peace. The peace that surpasses all understanding. Remind me that this is not about me. Remind me why I'm doing this.

I look like an idiot right now. People are staring. I can't stop crying. I had a breakdown while saying goodbye to my dad. I wish that I didn't have to say bye to my dad. As I write that though, I realize how blessed I am to have a dad at all that I can even say goodbye to! I'm flying down to Monterrey to serve the fatherLESS. And I am sitting here crying like a baby because I have to leave mine for a month.

As I write this, I can feel Your peace gradually settling in to my heart, Lord. Jesus, You're all I need. You're all I need.

-Cassie

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