God, I Want to Dream Again

Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it.

About a year and a half ago, I realized how far off track I had fallen in my walk with God. That's a different story though. When I first came to Christ, I was dreamin' some mighty big dreams for Him. I wanted to travel the world and tell all about him! But then something happened through out my middle school and early high school years, and all those dreams faded. They were only a memory. A broken and crushed dream. A dream that was far too big for me and my selfishness... or so I thought.

When I woke up to the cold reality that I was living only for myself, which would only amount to... well, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, I was crushed and devestated. I prayed over and over and over and over and over and over and over (are you getting the point?) this past year or two that my dreams would be restored. That I would again begin to dream big, to dream KINGDOM DREAMS again!

God answers prayers, folks. My dreams are now "bursting at the seams". I'm dreaming things I would have never dreamed without Christ. Some of these dreams seem SO big, that at times I doubt myself and am like "Maybe you should tame those dreams of yours." Then I realize that A.)They are not MY dreams to tame. B.)If they are not my dreams, then it is not me that will get the job done anyway. It's the wonderful, benevolent power working in me. "Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit" (Zechariah 4:6)

This past year, one of my favorite songs had these lyrics:

God I want to dream again
Take me where I've never been
I want to go there
This time I'm not scared.

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going
But faith is moving without knowing
Can I trust what I can't see?
To reach my destiny?
I want to take control but I know better.

God I want to dream again.

Forget the fear its just a crutch
That tries to hold you back
and turn your dreams to dust
All you need to do is just TRUST

My dreams are big, but my God is bigger. And if he asks me to do the impossible, I'm going to say COUNT ME IN! Because really... it's quite POSSIBLE with Him :)

These dreams keep me up at night, make me cry, make me laugh, make my heart beat fast, make my heart break, and bring me closer to my King's heart. It's worth giving EVERYTHING YOU HAVE up for his dreams, people. There is no other fulfillment than doing his work, and in that, finding out more about Him and becoming even closer to His heart.